emotionally undefine.




爱是不是不开口才珍贵.




omc,
can you believe it?
manutd draw at nou camp.
RAH!
the first minute was like uh RAH!
i was like thinking its a good time for me to do manicure or pedicure!
hence, taking out my necessary equipements for the session.
then i heard from the commentary board,
PENALTY!!
i stopped everything & stared hard on the tv screen.
OMC!
my heart jumped out when he missed it.
i was like sian-half!!
RAH!
everyone was like discussing about this when i met alan, jianliang & junhao.
!!!



i am almost rotting for the whole evening, as class ends at 4.
an hour earlier.


but thanks to yann xinglin aiman sheng & muhd.
had my usual girls' talk at cavana with the girls.
and bumped into aiman & sheng at coffee bean thereafter.
they call it the mayflower gathering.
haha.
basically, we were gossiping about teachers ; the good and the bad.
i miss my teachers who taught me.
they are sooooooooooooooooo nice!!
i miss ever comical chemistry "sister" mrs carol lau (well she is just a few years older than me!) , mr raj, mr tong NIKE, my friendly and gossiper-in-partner F&N teacher MDM DEWI, the ever funny & best geography teacher mr edwin chew!!, my SUPERNICE MOTHERLY MRS GOH!, ms sophie ng & others whom i cant really name finish all.......
& of cus rottenly gossip about some teachers of their BAD BAD BAD EVIL.
oppps!



then muhd came,
and it become a SP kind of gathering.
chatted about band.
syf 2005, stars of dreams concert in 2004, guest band at penang's syf 2005 & the upcoming concert!!!

photo epicts everything i want say~
wallace, mart, zh kor are coming!
sapphire too!
i am asking more people to go!
(:



sorry to bytch,
i know i am suppose to meet you for evening coffee at starbucks.
but i caught up with something, ya! hope you understand thou! (:
& i will blog about your stupid jokes on me later! (:
sorry to royson,
i know i am suppose to meet you at alpha.
but i caught up with something, ya! hope you understand too! (:
LOL.



today was lunatic.
met ahtek & ahho for bowling before class.
louis came. bert came after i left.
bowling is like so bad can!!
as usual, hitting my left ankle~
RAH!



lollipop tmr.
seems like alot of people going.
(:
that's a good sign.



&
the stupid joke(s) that auntienicole crack on me few days ago.
so stupid can!
nicole: i found out one thing about you, jokes about you infact
me: what? mytian~
nicole: the types of guys you always attract are either __________ or _______.
me: hmmm, agreeable. that's why they are my boyfriends right? & that's why we broke up right?
nicole: ya! but it's a good thing, come on!
me: ya funny?
nicole: nono, and the guys you are attracted to are normally __________, _________ but they treat you damn nice after all.
me: hmmm, ya. quite true... what you want to prove?
nicole: nothing.
me: then i tell you one joke.
nicole: what?
me: my ex arhs, their surnames in order (most of my ex starts with L), lim low liew, then hor, my next one right must be lee!!
nicole: -_-
me: i am destressing myself.
nicole: ya, SEAN LEE JIA QING!
me: my god, when did you ever see me talking to him?
nicole: hmmmm, like never leh.
me: then!?
nicole: nothing.
me: actually lah, i like ahong. i like ahhow, ahang, ahtan, ahho, ahng!
nicole: why all the ah comes out?
me: cannot arhs!


fyi,
the ah thingy came about between me and elishaMOO!
haha. (:



before i end,
before i shut down this computer,
before i head to bed,
before i doze off,
before i start to dream,
i want to express a little randomthought of mine.




about 2 months ago,
the day before i fly off, i was so much that happy but a little upset.
eventually, i had complete a little task that i want to do before i fly off.
to spend some good time with my good friends
& i did so.
i had spend time with you thou not just us alone, but i am very happy indeed.
and also with my brothers.


somehow,
i dont know why.
you make me feel tralalalalalala~ when i am away in china.


when i came back.
everything was like you-know?
seriously i dont know what to put.
lost for words.!
happy?
somehow i do really hope everything stays there.
我真得很开心!
seems like ages since i last felt so happy.
and there's always a but.
the but factor came in not long ago.
i told myself, i ought to treat you like a brother.
but i know i am decieving myself.
cant deny the fact that i've fallen into the pithole called love.
my sixth sense told me that there is someone out there too, trying to reach for you.
and i know i got to give up somehow, well, that's my character fyi, and not to make it more complicated than ever.
我们之间已尽很复杂了,如果再加上多一个她, 不是会更复杂吗?



kept dreaming about you and i.
everything was so sweet but come to realise i just woke up from a dream that might never be true.
for the past few days,
i was almost in a daze-mode.
daydreaming in class at times about this stupid silly matter.
ought to give myself a slap about it.
greatly thanks to lurvies, alan, junhao, yirong & gladys for their advice about my doubts for the past few days.
thanks to stan and ahtek too (:
especially ahtek! this morning got to trouble you so EARLY in the morning about it & sorry that you are the last few to know about it.
):
thanks to my girlfriends too!
(: (: (:



there is still a doubt in me before i end.
think only you got the answer..
no need to think, is ONLY YOU that have the answer.
why must i go for the thing when i think i dont see a need for me to?
and am i suppose to say sorry to you about that night?



ciao,
till then.


忘了是怎麼開始
也許就是對你有一種感覺
忽然間發現自己以深深愛上你


i looked around me,
something is missing.
& that's you and the things we once shared.